Why would you not just disappear from my brain, my life and my hart?

I can't take this anymore now. Please just leave me for myself..

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Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that she called home
Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm
Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK

I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
The echo of a broken child screaming "please no more"
Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done
To you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so, so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday

It's not so easy to forget
All the lines you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And every day I'm afraid to come home
In fear of what I might see there

Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK
I'm OK

Igår va det annietime =) Såg film och hade trevligt =) Hade tyvärr fruktansvärt ont i magen så var nog inte den trevligaste.

Somnade runt 3 vaknade vid 7 av att faris ville ut. Somnade om en liten stund men fick riktigt ont så jag satte mig och tycte synd om mig själv med cigg och missade avsnitt av andra avenyn <3

Nu är klockan lite över ett och jag ska snart in och duscha, sen ska jag försöka äta igen och sen blir det nog en runda till med älskling innan jag ska fly härifrån innan Göran kommer tillbaka.

Sen ska jag antingen hem eller till bagdad och hitta nån dum jävel att umgås med en stund. Behöver lite uppmuntran tror jag. Är lite halvt nere. :/